Saturday, 15 August 2015

Am I done now?

Hello all

So I'm just feeling now that I'm done with drinking for sure. Am I being cocky? Too confident? Do I need to stop blogging? Is that it? I can safely say that I really haven't had any major cravings over the last 102 (!) days and even now the thought of drinking turns my stomach.

Surely it can't be that easy? It's my husband's 40th next weekend and I'm actually looking forward to being sober at it. I want to keep blogging but I'm not sure I have that much to say anymore. Like, I'm sober, I don't drink. That's pretty much it really. (I do eye up wine bottles in friend's houses and make sure they keep their glasses topped up though..whatever that means..)

Some feedback from you all would be great.

Thank you my darlings and hope you're all doing ok.

xxMtts.

17 comments:

  1. Congratulations, you've turned a corner! I've been in the sober community for five years and I've witnessed a common "turn" at about six months sobriety, but you seem to have got their early. Good for you! Should you keep blogging? Of course, you should, you need to show all of those who are early in their struggle, who haven't gotten to the corner yet, what is around that corner, what they are struggling so hard for. They need proof of reward. There are a lot of us old geezers still blogging, those of us that are years down the road, those in early recovery need to hear something fresh, something within their reach.

    You are the messenger.

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  2. thanks kary! could you tell me a bit more about this turn thing? I know I love blogging but I don't want to bore anyone by blabbing on!

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    1. It seems to me that most people struggle with their decision to quit drinking the most in the first six months. They go through the difficult first few weeks of urges and body changes, sleep deprivation and highs and lows. If they make it through that, their pink cloud is waiting for them, which is a time of extreme highs, a kind of Nirvana, especially if they struggled with alcohol for a long time like I did. Life is so much easier and blissful without it. You may be at this point right now. The pink cloud doesn't abandon you at six months, mine stayed around for two years. but by this time, you've been through holidays, birthdays, your friends and family are used to you not drinking and you've finally realized that this not-drinking thing is a sustainable way of life. You're past the point of worrying about whether you can do it, and you're to the point where you can decide whether you "want" to do it. That is when you turn the corner. When you decide that not drinking is something you want to do, not something you have to do.

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  3. Reasons to keep blogging:
    1. Be a shining example of awesomeness
    2. Help other people with your experiences
    3. Sharing thoughts about how you see the world now, how it's different, what sobriety has done for you.

    I love reading the happy stuff, keep babbling, I'll keep reading:)

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  4. Dear MTTS,
    I am finding it harder to think of things to blog about, too.
    As I approach my year, I wonder.
    But I agree with the other bloggers, that I needed and STILL need a light to show me the way.
    If I can help other people stay sober by blogging, that's such a great thing!
    xo
    Wendy

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  5. Do not stop blogging. Pretty please? Please? You are my inspiration. I need you to find my own way. You don't have to blog every single day but you whenever you feel inspired to say something. Even a few sentences. Anything helps!

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    1. Thanks time! I will keep on blogging for sure. After yesterday I've realised I'm far from done!

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  6. I see sobriety as the starting point. We don't drink too much because it's fun.
    There's always more to it.
    Have you really looked at your whys? The path of self awareness is so amazing.

    I spent the weekend with 29 women in varying amounts of r very. The least was 1 year. And we all celebrated the fact that our journey would never end and that recovery had opened a door to a sisterhood of honesty.

    I haven't craved alcohol in a long time. But every day I find another reason to stay sober and celebrate me.

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    1. ooooo! that's scary! I'm not sure I'm ready yet to look into why I drank so much. That said there is alot of stuff coming up for me lately about my 20/30's that I might need to look at!

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    2. Keep your blog and do what I do- write when inspired.
      So much happens every day. It is nice to have a place to share the special moments, and the hard ones.

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  7. i love ur blog fellow irish gal. i think it will grow and evolve

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  8. Keep blogging! It really helps others stay on it. I read a few blogs daily and would be devestated if they stopped. I'm kind of caught up in all your lives now! Yours is one of them so it's maybe selfish of me but please keep blogging x

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    1. I know what you mean EH. I do think of my little blogging community often!

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  9. Please don't stop blogging. It's awesome that you have this under control, but blogging really does help. Besides, we will miss you! A x

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    1. You're right Angie, and not sure if it's that under control, it changes from day to day!

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