Monday 25 May 2015

Saying goodbye to AA (for now)


 Hello darlings,

I hope the weekend was kind to you and you managed to keep on track. As I said in my last blog, I had a ball. On Sunday we went up to the allotment and put down some courgettes. I did loads of weeding, which is actually very relaxing. Who knew! Me! Gardening!

So I didn't go to my Monday night meeting (I've been going to two a week for the last few weeks) and I think I'm not going to go again, for awhile at least. I find what I read online and what I experience in the meetings very conflicting. I see myself as becoming free from alcohol whereas alot of people at meetings seem to be defined by their drinking, or their drinking of many, many years ago. Not that I'm judging. No way no how. I can see how much support and relief the meetings give and I think it's truly amazing to hear what some people have gone through while they were drinking and indeed afterwards. But I just don't know if it's for me. I'm loving all the blogs I'm following and am getting so much inspiration from ALL of them. I'm loving blogging! I'm enjoying how free I'm feeling today. (From now on how I feel is just for today, this minute even as it changes all the time) I'm actually even enjoying the Jason Vale book and am reading it, highlighter in hand.

I told my dad about my decision today and he was so supportive, he said he really admired me and whatever happened he'd be there for me. Which is nice!

I also wanted to ask for your advice. I've been off wine now for 3 weeks and haven't really felt the urge for one since then. Is this normal? Will it last? What happens if I crave one? Is this the pink cloud they talk about? What comes after the pink cloud?! Please do tell dear hearts as I'd love to hear some feedback, whatever it is....

Keep it country my dears
xxxMtts
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  1. SoberMummy25 May 2015 at 14:49

    Hey you're doing great mtts! I'm sure that everyone's journey is different, but many seem to experience 'the wall' after the pink cloud - at around day 40. If you do, and it suddenly all feels a bit boring and pointless then DO NOT PANIC! Just keep on going and it gets better again! Hugs SM x

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    1. My time to shine25 May 2015 at 15:18

      Thanks so Much Sm! Is there an actual list somewhere of the various stages anywhere?

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  2. Time and the Bottle25 May 2015 at 15:17

    Blogging is providing a huge support. I read blogs, I get inspired. I find hope and strength to move forward.
    I am also three weeks in and so far my cravings are under control. They come and go. The weekends are the worst. During the week I feel so much better.
    I am no help since I always had cravings.
    Just keep on going. You are doing so great!

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    1. My time to shine25 May 2015 at 15:20

      Thanks. It's Just so mad sometimes. All of It!! Sure we'll keep on going. For another day anyway....x

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  3. WineColoredMemories14 June 2015 at 18:31

    Hi! Just found your blog and this post today. I have struggled with to AA or not to AA, as like you said, I have not had many of the experiences that those in the meetings have,(Like police, lying, cheating, and stealing). Like you, I want to focus on the positive things I can add into my life and being a happier, healthier person, instead of just not drinking. I'm beginning to wonder if AA is just for those "low bottom" alcoholics.

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