Self validation

Hello all

Again, my posting more regularly is definitely going better...I just find it hard to find the time to post during the day and then in the evenings I'm just too tired! Still I'll keep trying!

So I'm 7 months off the booze now! Can't quite believe that it's me that's done that. 7 months seems even more significant than 6. I don't know why, I guess 6 months is a milestone but then 7 is just more normal and everyday, like it's what I do now.

I have to say I've been thinking alot about self validation lately. About how in any conversation or discussion I will always think that other people are right or know better than me. That my opinion or idea isn't as good or as 'right' as others are. Interesting. I wonder where that comes from. I have friends who have massive sureness in themselves. It's a lovely quality. To be sure of yourself. Even though in some aspects I'm very confident I can also be insecure and worrisome about things. It's interesting that these deep thoughts are coming up now, now the fog and relentless cycle of hungover, drunk, thinking of drinking and also of self loathing is gone all these new, more interesting thoughts are arriving.

I'm having a bit of a stressful time lately though so I have to be aware that old ways of thinking (circling thoughts, negative feelings etc) are a reaction to the stress rather than the truth. I'm thinking about a mindfulness course.

Also, I wanted to ask you guys, with Christmas coming up and all these yummy mince pies with brandy butter or boozy trifles knocking around - Will you avoid these like the plague or have some?? My gut is to avoid like plague but I'm just interested really in what people think in general of food with booze in!!

I hope you're all doing well. I will check in again soon. I promise.

xxxxMtts