Ah lads
I've just spent the last weekend at a wedding and at the BBQ the next day too. Then we've a week in Lanzarote. And everyone is drinking and having fun. And I miss it. I really do. I missed having a few drinks and having the chats the day after the wedding, I'm going to miss having a few drinks before we fly (and while we fly and when we land....) and when we're there.
I really, really miss just being able to sit down with people for longer than an hour (that's as long as my patience lasts with fizzy water) and just chatting. I mean I know that the truth isn't that but I'm finding it really hard to socialise and do all those sort of normal things without alcohol.
A friend of mine is flying to Portugal today and I'm so jealous that right about now she's up at the airport with her husband having a few drinks.
I'm feeling sad and sort of despairing for the summer to be honest. How come, with nearly a year under my belt I'm feeling like this now???
xxxxMtts
Tuesday, 26 April 2016
Friday, 22 April 2016
Nose ring
Hi all
People - I have a nose ring. It's official - I'm having a mid life crisis. A tattoo is next. I love sober!!
I feel awful for not blogging more (sigh, again.) I suppose I've felt a bit like I didn't want to talk about how I was feeling for awhile there. I was a bit up and down and sad that I don't drink anymore. I know I've gone through it before so I was just waiting for it to pass. I was also feeling a bit cross. Eventually I went to the doctor and she's upped my happy pills a little. Weirdly I've started feeling a bit better, even though I'm only on the higher dose a few days now!
I had a brilliant chat yesterday with a guy I'd emailed a few times about abstaining. He's a DJ on one of our national stations and he's made a few sober podcasts about his year of not drinking. He was sick of how hangovers made him feel and wanted to give it a break. In tandem he did The booze chronicles. They won some sort of award in the US. Google them! So anyway he was in town yesterday doing a live show and I decided to call down to see him. I would NEVER do this normally but he'd been a great support and I wanted to thank him. So we got chatting for a bit and then he asked if he could interview me for his next podcast!! ME!! BEING INTERVIEWED ABOUT BEING SOBER!!! Hilarious. It was so brilliant to meet a real live person who was also sort of in the same boat as me. I think in society we either are 1. full blown AA attending folk or 2. Drinkers. There's no-one in the middle, no-one stuggling quietly away, gettting their shit done but slowly dying inside, suffer mentally and physically. My husband now wants me to start a support group hilariously called The In-betweeners. So I'm not sure when it'll come out, even if it will come out but I'll let you know. It was a real boost to remember that there are other people out there that are like me. At this stage though I would really love to meet some of them. So who wants to come to Cork for coffee?!! You know you want to. Wouldn't it be amazing?? I'm hoping to be in London at the end of August, would anyone but up for meeting??
Anyway, on the 3rd May I'm a year sober. I can't quiet believe it, and I have a long list of 'presents' that I'm expressly asking for. Unfortunately a trip to Jamaica will have to wait though!
Lots of love my darlings. xxxxx
People - I have a nose ring. It's official - I'm having a mid life crisis. A tattoo is next. I love sober!!
I feel awful for not blogging more (sigh, again.) I suppose I've felt a bit like I didn't want to talk about how I was feeling for awhile there. I was a bit up and down and sad that I don't drink anymore. I know I've gone through it before so I was just waiting for it to pass. I was also feeling a bit cross. Eventually I went to the doctor and she's upped my happy pills a little. Weirdly I've started feeling a bit better, even though I'm only on the higher dose a few days now!
I had a brilliant chat yesterday with a guy I'd emailed a few times about abstaining. He's a DJ on one of our national stations and he's made a few sober podcasts about his year of not drinking. He was sick of how hangovers made him feel and wanted to give it a break. In tandem he did The booze chronicles. They won some sort of award in the US. Google them! So anyway he was in town yesterday doing a live show and I decided to call down to see him. I would NEVER do this normally but he'd been a great support and I wanted to thank him. So we got chatting for a bit and then he asked if he could interview me for his next podcast!! ME!! BEING INTERVIEWED ABOUT BEING SOBER!!! Hilarious. It was so brilliant to meet a real live person who was also sort of in the same boat as me. I think in society we either are 1. full blown AA attending folk or 2. Drinkers. There's no-one in the middle, no-one stuggling quietly away, gettting their shit done but slowly dying inside, suffer mentally and physically. My husband now wants me to start a support group hilariously called The In-betweeners. So I'm not sure when it'll come out, even if it will come out but I'll let you know. It was a real boost to remember that there are other people out there that are like me. At this stage though I would really love to meet some of them. So who wants to come to Cork for coffee?!! You know you want to. Wouldn't it be amazing?? I'm hoping to be in London at the end of August, would anyone but up for meeting??
Anyway, on the 3rd May I'm a year sober. I can't quiet believe it, and I have a long list of 'presents' that I'm expressly asking for. Unfortunately a trip to Jamaica will have to wait though!
Lots of love my darlings. xxxxx
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