Paddy's day and a hen night...

So last week brought two new sober experiences. Paddy's day, which would normally start off in my friend's house with a hot whiskey before the parade and a hen party, which would have been carnage (for me anyway, turns out that since I've stopped drinking I've noticed how little those around me seem to imbibe..)

So paddy's day was fine, really lovely. I had a few moments when I thought 'mmm I'd really like a glass of red now' The pubs were spilling out onto the paths and everyone seemed in great form (granted that was at about 3pm..a few hours later would have been a very different story I'm sure!) Friends invited us down to the hotel we usually go to after the parade. I said we'd go but then it dawned on me that I don't actually have to do that to myself. I can choose to stay out of the pub on Patrick's day. It's not mandatory!

Hen party was a bit more challenging. Let's just say I'm not the best person in the world to go to a hen night sober. It was a sedate affair - dinner out and then a comedy gig. I did notice that the drinking wasn't as crazy as it might have been had I been on the lash with them. Some people weren't even drinking! Making small talk with strangers is not my forte. I'm well able for it but find it totally exhausting. And boring. I fear I'm a bit of a grumpy old lady and sometimes people just aren't my favourite. They just aren't! I put on a good show but was ready to leave by 11. Still it was my first sober night out so I can allow myself some room for adjustment!

I hope you're all doing well, sober mummy back from her Jamaican holiday - I've started dropping hints already!!

Lots of love to you all

xxxMtts

Spring - new beginnings.

Hi guys

Just a short post today.

 Things are going well for me at the moment. Had a little wobble yesterday. The weather is getting nice and mild and feeling spring like. I was in town and walked past a pub which has an outdoor drinking area and people were sipping away on their beers. Mmmm I thought, that looks really nice. Ffs, I don't even really like beer. Then last night it struck me that the only people who were drinking were women who looked about 70 and totally haggard and wrecked!! I mean, how did I not see that at the time?! Plus it was about 1pm on a Thursday afternoon! Just goes to show that the romantic vision I have around booze is still there. Nice weather, sitting outside, getting pissed. Where does that come from in our society? What's that all about?

In other news my mum, dad and sister have all commented on how I've changed since becoming sober, I'm nicer, more patient, less snappy. Gulp. What was I like?! But I know I am. I just can't believe that I don't drink anymore. I really was my life. I just didn't know how much of it. I never, ever thought that I would be that person who didn't booze it up. My life has changed. So, so much.I really hope that my story can help even just one person if they're having a bad day. It's so worth it. No, scratch that, YOU'RE so worth it.

Lots of love and happy vibes my darlings.

xxxxxMtts